Today was supposed to be a day of studying, reading and writing. Instead, I found myself cleaning for over 3 hours. I scrubbed our house like it's not been scrubbed in a long time. Mundane it seems, but actually not so trivial. Whenever I get the sense that my life is about to be out of my control, I clean. I scrub. I nest. When I worked at the bank, they used to see me cleaning and steer clear of me because they had an inkling of what was to come. It is honestly completely subconscious. I do not even realize that I am in the cycle until I'm in deep...with couches moved and Windex sprayed and Clorox Cleanup all over my shirt. By that time, I'm past the point of no return and I have to race to the finish line. So, our house is spic and span.
On so many levels, my meeting with Pastor John is important tonight. I guess I didn't realize how important until my hands were chafed. I have to be honest...really honest with him about where I see my life going. In that, I risk so many things. It's better to take the risk now than wait. I don't want to be in England, outside of a tent, after the best meeting of my life and have my heart crushed and handed to me on a platter. I'd rather do that now. Though I have the sense that my heart will not be handed to me on a platter but rather protected. Yet I find myself cleaning.
For now, a nap and some reflection are in order.
This is a chronicle of the life of a zany woman who has found a part of what God has called her to do. I invite you to grab a cup of coffee, sit back and enjoy the read. And...feel free to let me know that you've stopped by. I love making new friends!
i was MADE for this
- Deneen
- Servant. Leader. Friend. Daughter. I am learning who I am through the eyes of the One who created me in all of my uniqueness to be His. A journey has begun, and I am blessed to have the opportunity to do life with an amazing group of friends, a family who loves me and a church that is in the business of showing the love of Christ to a hope-starved generation.
Philadelphia
1 Timothy 4:11-14
Get the word out. Teach all these things. And don't let anyone put you down because you're young. Teach believers with your life: by word, by demeanor, by love, by faith, by integrity. Stay at your post reading Scripture, giving counsel, teaching. And that special gift of ministry you were given when the leaders of the church laid hands on you and prayed—keep that dusted off and in use.
1 Timothy 4:15-16
Cultivate these things. Immerse yourself in them. The people will all see you mature right before their eyes! Keep a firm grasp on both your character and your teaching. Don't be diverted. Just keep at it. Both you and those who hear you will experience salvation.
Psalm 111:10
The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom;
all who follow his precepts have good understanding.
To him belongs eternal praise.
1 comment:
Now I know what to get you for Christmas, those yellow gloves and a bottle of Mr. Clean. For things are about change, change for the good, change so that the promises and purposes of God can be fulfilled in your life. I'm passing on a piece of advice I just received from Beth, "hold on to the bar...this is going to be an amazing ride!"
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